The norm

The other night, Travis worked late. Me and the kids had the night to ourselves so we had a popcorn and book night. Amara went into her room and got all of her stuffed animals and blankets. Her and Callen sat on the main couch and she instructed me to sit on the other couch to read books to them. When I sat down there were a few stuffed animals that I set aside so I could sit down. She immediately scolded me because those particular animals "were for Eliza to hold". She also told me that Eliza was sitting with me while we were reading. 

I am just amazed at how often Amara brings up her sister. She has so much pride in her voice about talking about her baby sister. 

I started crying thinking about what it would look like reading to my 3 children on the couch, Amara holding Eliza with Callen next to them. How many times in my life am I going to invision what could have been and burst into tears? 

I was able to still pull it together and read and smile and laugh with these 2 goofs. Just look at them! We had an awesome date night snuggling, reading, eating popcorn. 

I laugh, and I cry, and I cry and I laugh. All within minutes of each other. Its the norm around here these days.
I guess thats part of life with 3 children, 2 on earth and 1 in heaven above.